Traveling
It’s different once you do it on purpose. When you put yourself in a position that you much rather have hoped there was another way, but yet you face nothing but inevitability. The future can be a scary thing, because regardless if you want to or not, its something you must face and endure. Constantly waiting to see the fruits of your labor, the out come of your choices.
I’m sure we all get to the point of asking the ‘what if’, questions; wondering if things would have ever been different if we choose to go right instead of left. But what holds true is the reason behind it all. The original choice of why. Up till now that has been my prime focus, choice. Why do I do what I do? To what benefit does my choice give me at the end of the day? What is it that is in my heart that pushes me to go one way when I could easily choose the other.
My own honesty kills me. I guess it is easier to take care of yourself than to try and travel across the road with someone who isn’t reading the same map as you. To shun the world for it offers and become reliable and responsibly for merely yourself and yourself alone. Overall i’d like to view myself as a humble time traveler, walking slowly across the span of time, enjoying each breath carefully as candy to a child.
But can I ever be to careful. I’m sorry and I am not. I chose left because I was too comfortable being right. And all in all I will be sure I reach my final destination. I am in no rush, but I am just the same. Forever fighting, forever wandering.
Longevity
My word for the month- Longevity.
There was a time where I only thought in the short term. I couldn’t comprehend the big picture because my mind wasn’t open to the possibilities of what can happen. Yes I am a firm believer in anything is possible, but that only applies if one is willing to make the impossible a reality. Imagination, persistence, and a spark of revelation can get you from here to there. Faith overall, because at the end we can’t do it on our own.
I have dreams, I had dreams. At one point and time i believed in the American dream and for what it stood for, now I am more concerned about how I can make every tomorrow better than the one before it. Easier said than done, since opposition is always rising, but I never steer away from the goal.
Survival, mentally, emotionally and physically in my opinion are never based on short term. Most businesses fail because they follow immediate trend, instead of pending trends and adjusting themselves accordingly. Most relationships fail because we wish to believe that right now is all that matters and that the future will be okay, never taking into account of change.
I don’t know, my mind and attitude towards a lot of things have changed lately. If I pursue business, I will aim to establish myself as a constantly changing artist, never settling for my yesterdays work. If I pursue love, than I rather not waste time trying, but encourage more sense of doing. I have “had” and I have “lost” and I have learned all the same.
